Purpose

When I was young, my parents said that I always learned things quickly. One instance that my mother told me about this past year involves piano lessons. We played for three years, starting at the age of 5 (at least my brother and I were; my sister was 7). Lessons that took them two hours to become proficient, only took me half an hour. So I would naturally spend less time practicing. My piano teacher, Mrs. Wilson, wasn't fooled by my performance, because she knew it took me less time and somehow, I was progressing at the same pace as my siblings. Lack of pure motivation, as she termed it. I was motivated to learn just enough, but not push myself to excel for the sake of it, although it would have taken no more time than my brother and sister.

And so I have found that 17 years later, I have still not discovered anything that inspires me enough to 'excel for the sake of it.' I graduated high school early, earned an engineering degree, worked internships, co-ops, overseas teaching and research, and am currently getting an MBA and conducting graduate research. And it all happened as quickly and in such a fluid motion as it was just presented to you. It was all done in a frantic search for something...anything that I would be content in doing for a lifetime.

I've yet to find my passion, as some might call it. I feel as if I am terribly close to it being within my grasp, but it's kind of like having your eyes open in pitch black with your hands splayed in front of you. You know something is close, and you're bound to run into it, but you have no idea where it's going to hit, or if you'll stumble right past it unknowingly. This is my current state and it is an unsettling one; what am I going to do with my life?

This blog will serve as a sounding board to answer that question. Happenings, odd or new circumstances, hobbies, stories and inspiration in the form of any medium that I find myself entangled with will be presented in an attempt to leech out my passion, whatever it may end up being. Also note my fascination with 'the story.' Passion can be discovered in ways other than direct experience. Let's hope mine is not just in the searching!

Wish me luck!...and the motivation to not settle for 'good enough.' I'm pretty sure Mrs. Wilson would like that :)